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i ran into a girl i modelled with in 2005 - at work. whats up with all the creative directors fetish for models? anyways, she didnt even worked there, she was there visiting the guy that got me the gig. nothing seems to surprise me anymore. thats one luxury lost.

this wknd i rode with my new pal from bank of china and i was so baked i almost cleaned out the entire confetionery section at city super. he cooked two 3 course meal for me in one day, than we asked S to come over with some random bitches we can make fun of. whats even more weird is that we found out we have a mutual friend through facebook. And here comes the grand finale, I used to modell with this friend the banker knows and the other girl I later ran into at my office. nice one eh.

anyways, i get the most funny and deep emails from guys. here is one classic "I am very confident enough of a man to make your life shine and bright full of happiness" and this sucker "you are the woman that I want in my life and that there could be NO ONE else for me here in this world except you" but this one is my favourite received just today "My life is flexible at the moment, so it isn't difficult to visit you, but I'm scared to do so. It's very hot today. Real summer has begun. ". Holy shit you guys are like fucking ports, Edgar Alan Poe BITE me.

let me finish this hole oh-banana-u-r-so-fucking-amazing-marathon with this sms I got today from a colleague;

me - i dont dip my pen into companies ink
him - technically we are in different inks (ref. to different departments)

a letter to all of you

there is too many things i wanna say but im caught with fighting my own demons so here is a letter for that.

To Jules,

Im sorry that I couldnt say anything this morning, I blame it on the lack of sleep and also the plain sadness of seeing u leaving. I hate saying goodbye and I hate even more saying goodbye in the mornings. I know that you and X will work things out and if there is one advice I can give you is this: real love doesnt ask for return :) And here is one from Ulrik: Dont let the logistics hold you back from performing! xoxo

To KC,

There were times when we were innocent and the we would still notice when the leaves would turn yellow and red. I wish you all the happiness in the world but you need to realize things and make a change for it to be better.

To You,

I still think of you. Alot lately

To Myself.

Stop writing and go to bed.

im exhaustastedstestetstdts

more update tomo. big wedding. big wknd. big dissapointment

beauty penalty

when it is given out from one of your best friends, it hurts.

mad men and women

its almost midnight and my colleague is calling me n yelling on the phone that i've to come out and "engage". im from venus and you are from mars, your balls wont look tired tomo but my vagina will sag and so will the bags under my eyes. Thats what I told him and now he is telling his friend Jon that I got a tired vagina. wtf, isnt that the jon on the creative team? oh fucking great. now ill be the tired vagina in the office. great.

advertising is how do i say it...MAD. Not those aggressive madness but more on the, hey we work 15h per day and we hit the waterhole straight afterwards. sorry ladies n gentlemen, im lame and a pussy. i need my 7h of beauty sleep although I dont find anything beautiful about it or about me. i guess im preserving my vagina for better days.

good night and good luck.

work is hard

got off at midnight last, work is hard but the playing is even harder. ill update more later today. the wrigley pitch n now the puma account...im swamped but happy!

i rather stay home and dye my eyebrows than date you

I woke up this noon after my grandma came in and told me that I would be late for the auction. Mother thought going to an auction when its raining is way too decadent for me. And I thought mothers knew their daughters. I told my new found friend last night that I hope to see him in formal clothing in 2 weeks as for now I have only had the priviligie to watch him in lacoste shirts and naked. Sex without love is just healthy exercise. Pure love is pure nonsense.