my prozac

Helena has been here visitng and it is stressful to have friends around cause you always want them to have a amazing time, I can't express my gratitude more than saying that this is problably the only drug that works against the sourness this city has been drowing me with. Me and AJ has been submerged in our own grief about what a fucking blackhole we live in and having pals coming and enjoying this shithole is a nice reminder of what friends works as a sothing balm for the mind and soul. Even Sentosa seemed to look like something from a postcard.

Tomo Helena will be going back to Beijing and I will be doing a trip as well, a place where blogspot is blocked. So no blogging will be allowed here.

I hope to see BonBon on the wknd of 26th and Itai on the wknd of 5th. I got a pharmacy of happy pills and they r called Frozac™.

I love you all

Now go n do your homework suckers

1001 times

Since last night I have been listening to this song non stop. It makes me wanna learn more Chinese, because it is the most beautiful and sophisticated language that I will ever master. The English translation never does any justice to the original version.

monday style inspiration

Shitbag

It's the 3rd Saturday in a row that I wake up without being drunk or stupidly high on nicotine, this is a result of being broke. I can't wait until the payday. However being grounded does give you loads of time to reflect over ur curent shitty life and watch all the korean dramas back to back. I also realized that I never finished reading Lady Chatterley's Lover. Doris Lessing once said in Guardian that D.H Lawrence was denying the existence of clitoris, and he called it "a beak". A beak that rubbed and tore "in the old stagers, particularly". To Lawrence the clitoris was a weapon, against the male. And when Lawrence discovered anal sex, things went well, for him at least, though his friendly pet name for his wife was "shitbag". Misogynist my ass! It must be one the great ironies, Lawrence being a woman-hater, no one wrote about the sex war better than he did.

Now I am going to ride away and look for a "real" man; gamekeepers, gypsies, Indians, all the time cruelly jeering.

favourite position

AJ asked me if I am shooting heroin behind his back cause he is finding used spoons all around the house. The truth is that I eat processed sugar crap snack all day long and leave behind the utensils behind.

Erh

Slightly panic when I think about myself walking around in -12 C in Stockholm.

I think I just pied my pants again

white chocolate wrapped in dark chocolate

so I am eating endangered chocolate animals cookies and thinking about that I m helping all the Sumatran Rhinos by consuming a fairly large amount of calories by myself. 10% of profits donated to the Jane Goodall Institute. And 100% fat goes to my tummy.
mmmmmmmm

I can run and I will hide

I took the afternoon off cause I had to run some errands, instead of taking the public transport I walked. There is this really nice green field behind our place which is much nicer than walking next to the main road. Anyways, after 30 min I start to notice that the same white car was appearing at each street corner, I was like dang, I am being stalked. I hit myself on the chest and did my thug walk up to the white car, leaned back and asked the creep why he was following me. The guy asked me if I wanna a ride.
Wtf, do I look like a frickin prostitute without a bus pass or wot? Anyways, I told the skank that I don´t get into random people´s cars and he should stop stalking me. N than I ran to the shady Indian money exchanger and bought myself a frozen yogurt.

Btw. Kim Hyun Joong you can stalk me anytime. Hey, I´ll even develop the Stalkholm Syndrome for you :)